b'in

denti is complaining. she wants her own blog with flowers and kittens. i want to hit her on the head

s t r e t c h

gotta get in shape. start doing stuff again. i'm getting bored.

writersblock

Just got back from supper. Burp!

Honest, this is one of those weeks where i’m just sick of blogging and everything that’s connected to it.

p/s: i’m slowly coming out of it already obviously because i’ve actually published this

maybe

i think i might need therapy

HEY!

Hi guys - bored bored bored and God knows whether i'm tipsy or JUST happy. But yeah yeah yeah i don't deny i love sex and lately i have more fun when doing it. Nikki, Denti and i went out the other night and stopped by a gay bar (we didnt know that) and these black chicks hit on us right away. They were all pretty and u wouldnt think they were lesbians. The one who kept dancing with me tried to kiss me when we were slow dancing so i let her. That's as far as that went - we got out of there in a hurry after some chick pulled a knife on another girl - the club emptied out! LOL! It was fun tho

bleh

i don't really have anything new to say. I'm getting pretty boring here....

happy thanksgiving

i'm not blogging today

TeeN dEpreSSioN

When i was 14.....i thought about suicide. i wanted to leave. Everything was hopeless for me. i couldn’t see anything i could contribute to society or what anyone might gain from my existence. The more i thought about taking my life, the more i thought about my parents. The anguish was unbearable. i wanted to cast away my inner conflicts and struggles, but i just could not bear the thought of my dear parents suffering as a result of my actions. i would endure anything if they would not have to suffer in return. When i was 14.

My Computer Had A Spasm

The desktop equivalent of an epileptic fit. It's fix now, i guess....

Cooking with the twitterer! Sweet Rice Pudding!

1 cup uncooked regular rice
2 eggs
1/2 cup. evaporated milk
1 cup sugar
1 tbsp. vanilla extract
a pinch of salt

Fill a 2 quart heavy saucepan 3/4 full of water (about 4 1/2 cups), 1/2 tsp. vegetable oil and 1/2 tsp. salt.

Bring to a full boil and add rice stirring until returns to boil, then reduce heat and simmer, stirring occasionally until rice absorbs water and is tender about 45 minutes.

Rice should look dry and sticky.

While rice cooks, beat together eggs, milk, sugar, vanilla extract, and salt until foamy and thick. (I use a wire whip).

Pour into rice and stir over medium heat until bubbles start to break over surface.

Pour into dish and sprinkle with nutmeg as much or as little as you like. Add raisins too if you like them.

This is a sweet rich pudding mom taught me to make. I learned while watching her.

Best served warm.

.....about last night.....

i just got home from a night out with the girls.... this jerko guy asked me to dance and was licking my neck.... i pushed him off then he grabbed me and started humping me on the dance floor...

"I've had a wonderful time, but this wasn't it."
--Groucho Marx

over before it begins

new guy at work stops by my desk. i told him i saw him in the closet with so-and-so. he laughs and says he wants to take me in there next. tells me what he did to her and how he will do it to me. i recorded him with one of my hubby's little machines. played it for the boss. new guy is gone. fired. HOORAY 4 ME!

new guy at work

slapped his face yesterday
OUCH.

he leaves a flower in a vase on my desk today
HMM.

rings up my extension later says he loves me
HEH?

rings again says he wants to XXX-rated
HMPH.

rings back to apologize for remarks
SMIRK.

stops by my cubicle says he has a hard you-know-what
WINK.

break time and i feel a little aroused,
he grabs my boob when no one is looking
SQUEAL.

he tries to kiss me and i let him
SIGH.

he tells me my blog turns him on, esp. posts about kissing nikki and denti
BLUSH.

now i really feel guilty
AUGH.

later see him coming out of closet with female co-worker
MEH.

feeling shitty
BLAH.

life sucks
AARGH.

and then we die
;P

annoying allstar#12 ^_^

so i met this idiot at work.
new guy.
asks me out AFTER seeing my wedding ring.
i say no.

next day asks me again in the break room.
squeezes my butt on the way out
what an asshole

today he comes up from behind
and squeezes my boob
i turned around
slapped his face

leave me alone, jerk! white trash!

Girls R Us

Girls are fickle. Tell you why.

We know we have to have an opinion of something, although we're not sure what it is, so whatever opinion we're close to settling with, that's what we decide. However, later, we think more and more about something, and being to lean towards another opinion, but we're still not completely sure about it. Yet, we tell people we are. Then there are those times, when you say you think a certain way about something, but for one or two things, it's somewhat different cirsumstances. People call us fickle. We're actually uncetain about most of it, but do our best to decide on something. We change our minds, but not as often as one might think- we just haven't come to a conclusion yet.

LOL! Make any sense?

Girls night out was great!

Me, Nikki, Denti, & LaDonna did the karaoke. i drank too much and started making out with LaDonna (she's a les.... a cute black girl from Haiti) ha ha So funny! Denti took pics but i think they are too sexy for here!....she says she loves me now...lol....omg! i am embarassed after watching the pics....... Denti and Nikki went wild dancing..lol. A few tears (denti) but **GrEaT MeMoRiEs** but i gotta lay low for awhile

Don't Worry B

Your secret is my secret. She will never know. She will never guess. Even though it is right before her! i will wait for you on your webcam again, my B!

Picture Not To Be Seen

On the way to the supply closet at work, Jack stopped me in the hallway, and handed me a picture of what he said was heis dick. i burst out laughing. He went away. Too bad he took the pic back.

Pig Girl Call

Mari-oinka!
Oink-oink-oink-oink oink oink oinka-oink!
oinka oikna oinka why you awake?
Oinka oinka shake it shake

remodeling

today i woke up to this banging in my house. i just wake up and hear, WHAAM WHAAM, and then jump out of my bed, walk to the door of my bedroom, open it, and then poke my head out wearily. Turns out dear hubby decided to take out one(or maybe two...) walls inside my dear little house. Hmmm... without consulting ME?

Miss Wordsalot

i believe that today i have done more writing that i ever imagined i would do. First, i e-mailed my mum a three page e-mail. i guess i was having such a good day that i just had to tell her all about it. i then went to my night class at university down the street where we did a freewriting exercise and i believe i wrote about a page and a bit on that exercise. We were read a passage from a slave diary and then we had to respond to it... iI believe that it got to me. i was amazed at the reaction i had to it. It seemed as if i could not put words on the page fast enough for my brain kept going on and on with ideas. i think it was a good exercise! i was a negro girl slave for a minute, under the thumb of my old white master!

The 100 Acre Personality Quiz

Everyone loves Poohbear, Tigger, Eeyore, and the others who live in the 100 Acre Wood... But have you ever wondered which of them you are the most like?

Now you can find out! Just fill out these 12 simple questions and click the button for your results!

SaiLor TweeTeR

i'm blogging from Nikki's lappie. found my old box of VCDs lost last time we moved. i had forgotten how much i loved Sailormoon. i'm so happy to watch again. i'm wondering wtf is up with entrecard! Any crap, i need to start getting back. i'm so excited. i get to see Denti's new kitten tonight. Then Nikki's play tomorrow, then home, and i've got a party to go to. Mmmmmmwack!- bye bye.

Our Adventures Out Clubbin'

It's been fun! Girls nite out and we hit the streets - stopped in at our little special place - DJ played all my favorite songs and theirs. Dance dance dance..... i can't even describe how crazy i was. No, i wasn't the only one. Everybody even the bouncer was dancing most of the time. At one point, Nikki had to takel me aside to try and calm me down. There was one little song/chant they do, and me, along with a few other people were doing what the song said "do the humpty hump" or whatever. When it was over, we all turned to see the entire crowd had taken a few steps back, and they were all staring at us, laughing. It was great!!

thinkthinkthink

Isso tudo é muito grave. Tô correndo perigo. Perigo do que? De vida, diz que esse não existe!

sheesh! it took me a loooooong time before i get to jot some things here in my journal. denti and I were karyokying all night, no nikki :( she started working part-time in a strip mall computershop. im kinda sleepy... (sleepy) anyways today was nice .. i've also been thinking about my friends and family. i hope and i pray that everyone is doing good.

i don't understand life, don't understand God... He gives these verses "You turned my mourning into dancing..." but all i have done is mourning. The tears i cry, almost everyday, because of the overwhelming-ness of my life is almost too much for me to bear. i just don't know how to handle anything anymore. i used to have big dreams for my life... big plans of happiness and love... but yet i just do not see those dreams ever coming true. I don't see my life being filled with joy and happiness-- and i can't understand how God can promise those things yet this is what has happened so far. It has all been tears and pain so far from the time i have known Him... yet i know i cannot go back to the old way of me.. So what to do? Face a life of tears? of forever being misunderstood? by Chrisitans and non-Christians alike? what do i do? i try so hard to live for what i believe in, to stand up for my beliefs and love others-- nikki says not to worry-- it is easy for her to live day by day.. but not for me

advenTure trouble

Me, Denti, Nikki & Bea went to Artie's house for his "get-2gether"... it was okay! ha ha me, Nikki, LaDonna, and Richie played "suck & blow"..ha ha....Denti (the kiss) o jeez! lol We all got messed up and stayed at Nikkis house ....and thats all! :)

MEN!

a bunch of older men were looking at me while I was shopping....well I didn't care because they were too old for me...one guy deliberately rubbed up against my butt.. a few weeks ago i was out with the girls and this one guy kept humping nikki while we were dancing... the there was a slow dance and nikki hid so i got stuck dancing with him and of course he was rubbing me while we danced. it was exciting in an odd way..Can you imagine? i do the craziest things...

On the average when i stay out with my girls, without clubbin, i leave after 8 when the little ones are in bed and its ok with hubby if i arrive home around the midnight time slot. When clubbin, it's either around 1:30 - 2Am, or past 3Am, once in awhile 3:30Am or so. That's not really good for a young mom to keep all the time, i suppose, like twice weekly or something. i think maybe in future i know that i don't want my kids to keep things this way too. i want them to be God-fearing, respectable kids who know how to have fun within the limits and not go over the tops, if that's how you could term it.

have you ever felt so confused that you didnt know what to do so much that you had to leave it alone. well, anyways im just thinking out loud.. skoozme.. I love you David, and if you're reading this thank you for the love that you show me. i know that i never thank you for what you do, or for who you are, but i want to thank you now.

1st Day of November

Okay, so it's November. November. It's November. I like November. Thanksgiving comes in November. The weather begins to get progressively colder in November. When I think of November, I get a "warm chill". Now it really is November! I'm goins to my friend Julie's place tonight for dinner. She and Andy recently bought a house and we are going out there, checking the joint out, meeting the new kittens...Milo and Nluffie. That's right, NLUFFIE! Yesterday was the first halloween that I didn't go trick or treating with D. That was sad... this morning I called him on the phone and explained that I was really sad because I had been trickertreating with him every year since he was born, (until now) and he said "I love you"...out of nowhere. Precious moment! Very cute. Thanks friends for checking out the never-changing blog so regularly.