Me is ToAsT

No mood to go out today. Juz wanna have a good rest.. as the last few days had been VERY hectic for me- especially on last thursday. That day had been an unusual day for me coz i'd actually woke up quite early in the morning 4 retail therapy wif denti and maria (they hate each other) at the mall nearby. HAH. we ate dinner there and i bought a new android.

Dreamchaser

Did you miss me?

Today at the gym as the sweat dripped down into my eyes everything i have been thinking about the last couple of days kind of all came together. What was i thinking about you might ask?

Well ever since I met Maria a few months ago every time i am around her i feel like i should be so much better then i am. Like i have not even started to tap the potential that lives inside me. Also some of my frenz told me sometimes they feel like they could be doing so much more ..... It got me thinking.... we are all kind of trapped in boxes made by our own fears and laziness. Some people break out of the box and run towards everything that they want in life while others stay lost behind. Afraid to push down a wall. Maybe they tried but came up short only to fall back into the box more tired and alone then they were before. All these people need is a little help from the rest of us who have already made it out..... In the way of getting them motivated ...... i wonder if i have ever had any impact on someone. If i have inspired someone to change in a positive way. Because there have been so many people who have impacted my life and i should like to repay the favour..... So just remember this - chase your dreams no matter what they are and never laugh at somebody else's .....

dRunKen BloGGinG

im inna holidaze
just wanna give some shout outz to ma frenz...i don`t know where i`d be without u nicki and denti....you`ve taught me so much....... ( dat`s what friends are for, n`est pas?), you know already! A big hug goes out frum me to all y`all, heehee!

gimme a shout...perhaps you can grace my page with ur thoughts on life, luv wateva...or just say wassup...i promise i`ll get back to u eventually....

Bacanal by Night - Christmas Winter Wonderland - Closing Party of 2011 - Saturday December 10, 2011

Bacanal by Night - Christmas Winter Wonderland - Closing Party of 2011 - Saturday December 10, 2011 from Bacanal on Vimeo.

Blog Juice Running Again

got up at 1:30 pm (only 'cos i went to sleep at 5 am yesterday) only to find out nikki and denti went to the mall for lunch! So naturally they couldn't wake me up 'cos the only thing that could happen is me die of starvation but i mean hey! that's ok rite!?..Stupid f'n denti..i hate her..meh.... anyway so i found some brownie cakes *yummie* and that's what i ate for brunch ....=). Then since i wanted to blog so badly (writersblock must be lifting) i went on the computer only to find out that the stupid fucked up site is having some problems!! ***Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr* makes me wanna....... So because i couldn't do that i went onto denti's blog (i'll put up a link for that some day...i promise) and wrote a comment she was a bitch. That only took about 10 minutes of my time so i was still fucking bored!!!!. I wasted all day online looking at other peoples blogs. Yup im dead serious. Sat on my fat ass in front of the computer all day.

Girls night out was great!

Me, Nikki, Denti, & LaDonna did the karaoke. i drank too much and started making out with LaDonna (she's a les.... a cute black girl from Haiti) ha ha So funny! Denti took pics but i think they are too sexy for here!....she says she loves me now...lol....omg! i am embarassed after watching the pics....... Denti and Nikki went wild dancing..lol. A few tears (denti) but **GrEaT MeMoRiEs** but i gotta lay low for awhile

SaiLor TweeTeR

i'm blogging from Nikki's lappie. found my old box of VCDs lost last time we moved. i had forgotten how much i loved Sailormoon. i'm so happy to watch again. i'm wondering wtf is up with entrecard! Any crap, i need to start getting back. i'm so excited. i get to see Denti's new kitten tonight. Then Nikki's play tomorrow, then home, and i've got a party to go to. Mmmmmmwack!- bye bye.

Our Adventures Out Clubbin'

It's been fun! Girls nite out and we hit the streets - stopped in at our little special place - DJ played all my favorite songs and theirs. Dance dance dance..... i can't even describe how crazy i was. No, i wasn't the only one. Everybody even the bouncer was dancing most of the time. At one point, Nikki had to takel me aside to try and calm me down. There was one little song/chant they do, and me, along with a few other people were doing what the song said "do the humpty hump" or whatever. When it was over, we all turned to see the entire crowd had taken a few steps back, and they were all staring at us, laughing. It was great!!

advenTure trouble

Me, Denti, Nikki & Bea went to Artie's house for his "get-2gether"... it was okay! ha ha me, Nikki, LaDonna, and Richie played "suck & blow"..ha ha....Denti (the kiss) o jeez! lol We all got messed up and stayed at Nikkis house ....and thats all! :)

Dread was in vain!

A potentially bad evening turned out better than I could have ever possibly imagined. Let's start with me walking three blocks in the rain to get home from work. At that point I just needed more energy! But then out of nowhere, my hubby invited me out to dinner! A whole bunch of his people were going to the diner and I thought "oh craps, this is just weird," because he acted like I was part of their little group, and I'm not at all.

So of course I went, and had an amazing time. We all sat and talked. I didn't feel left out a bit. We joked and talked about work and books, blogs, etc. for a good two hours. Hubby's pal Felix was there too and he and I actually talked to each other, sanely. It turns out that he's starting up a new blog and asked for my help! I don't know if it'll be worth it, putting up with him. But I guess all bloggers are hard to put up with one way or another.

Other things happened today, of course. I wandered the mall alone for an hour and came so close to buying 100 dollars worth of birthday presents but at the last minute decided not to.

Tonight was great. Felix knows me now, sort of. The people I got to know a little better I found to be funny and honest. They kept teasing me about having to get up early for work in the morning.

Speaking of which I really should go to bed.

the end of denti

i told denti we needed her butt so we would have "the complete set" and so here it is

check recent posts for nikki's butt and my own personal butt

hey, we're just girls having fun

don't be mad :(

more butt

nikki and i were fooling around tonight watching some sexy DVDs at her place and we took some naughty pictures of our own - sorry you won't see them any time soon - but since the girls talked me into posting a pic of my butt recently - i thought it would be a good idea to post a pic of nikki's behind - you get to see the one with panties on - denti we need some pics of you next!

but butt

my two best friends nikki and denti say i have the coolest butt - when we're out at the mall or somewhere guys always look at it. nikki calls it my "bump" - nikki is half japanese half black and i think she has a rounder butt, but she says its rounder "the wrong way" - she's the one of us with the biggest chest. guys all love denti's face, hair and eyes. here's a pic denti took of me so you could see my butt

i think maybe i should put more videos/articles/links/photos/etc on this blog and i am working on it. i also want to be honest with those who come here to read and look. i am a living, feeling person just like you. i have a few demons, just like you. i have friends and family, just like you.

B'day, BAcK and ReAdy 2 BloG

i am in the weirdest mood right now... and im not sure how to exactly explain. first of all, i am very happy that i finally got this blog thing going again. im going to try to make this a really awesome blog. f all you jealous bitches who tried bum me out just because i use my hubby's adsense code. you are all little nothings in a little nothing world. that's why comments are off here. i don't need your bs messing with my head.

readers, peeps, tweeps: i'm gonna share a lot of my favourite recipes with you!

today nikki and i went and got our hair highlighted and cut which was nice. when i got home denti called me offering to treat me to frozen yogurt for my birthday! shes so nice. then I got home and unwrapped my presents and got a special surprise from hubby. my parents sent me a DVD from HK. we had cake, choclit, of course. yummmy. we decided to play monopoly and of course it took a long long time, but it was fun. and i won!! after that everyone left. it was a great birthday. hmmmmm, i just realized i didn't make a wish when I blew out the candles...

An Open Letter To Shengkay

Dear Sheng,

I know it's hard and only a fool will tell you that it's easy but try to keep going and remain strong for the baby.

I've been busy these past few months and we haven't been in touch. I don't actually know what happened but reading from your blog entries, I gather that you've been through a lot since the start of the year.

I'm sorry if I was not able to help or even lend my shoulder for you to cry on. I hope I was able to give you advices at that time and now, I'm wonderin' if things would have been different if you heard my stories and POV.

I had my share of heartaches and had my heart broken too before but at the time when my life seems bleak, I trusted God and believed His plans. Betrayal is hard to accept and forgiving is easier said than done but by having my faith in God, I was able to move on.

The best advice I received during that time was from my friend Joesel. She said "She, bisan ano mo kapilit kung hindi para kanimo, hindi guid ra. Bisan ano mo kalagyo, kung kamo guid, kamo guid. Ang importante gin-obra mo tanan nga pwede mo maobra, kung wara, te basi hindi guid man tana ang para kanimo." (She, no matter how you try if it's not for you, it's not. No matter how you run away, if you're meant to be, then you're meant to be. What's important is that you did everything you can but if nothing came out of it, maybe he's not really the one for you.)

Be strong Sis. Focus on your baby and the future. You're right, whether or not you're ready for the responsibility, you have no choice but to be. Try to be healthy during your pregnancy. Eat more fruits and veggies and drink plenty of water and milk. Avoid sweets, avoid soda. Try walking and other low impact exercises after the 1st trimester to avoid edema (with your doctor's advice).

Love and light sis, Godspeed!
SR

The Kirsten Joy Quotes

You know what's sad about being abroad and having your phone in a roaming mode? It seldom rings.

I used to think that forwarded messages and other unsolicited messages are just distractions from my busy workload (sometimes, even a waste of time especially if I'm in the middle a very important work and beating the deadline!!!) but now, every single beep is like a sound of heavenly music to my ears. That is, if I hear it. Because now that I rarely hear the message tone, there are times that I don't recognize it anymore! =)

I'd like to recognize and give credit to my friend Kirsten Joy for sending me messages even if I could only reply once in a while because of higher roaming rates. I'm glad there's Chikka to let me reply to her via the internet too but it's limited and she's charged after a certain number of messages.

Let me share with you some messages sent to me by Kirsten:

"Don't count the things you think you've done for someone. Count the number of times you felt better just because you made them happy."

"Life itself is a challenge that we ought to face. We lose some, we win some. But if we never give up, we'll discover that sacrifices has the greatest rewards. God cares."

"Trials exist not because God wants to test you. That is a lie. He already knows your capabilities more than you could imagine. Trials exists because you need to learn one thing: Faith."

"Do what makes you happy. Life is not based on the money you've got and the success you've achieved. It's all about being happy with who you are, who you love and who makes your life worth living."

"Friendship isn't ranked by whom we have known the longest, who came first or who cares the best. It's about who came and never left."

"Prayer is the best shield against all trials. A heart to heart talk with God will lessen your burden for He will never say no to those who have faith in Him."

"When we sigh about our problems, they grow double. When we laugh about them, they become bubbles. Have a bright, light and bubbly day."

"Why did God make the world round? So that no matter how small or insignificant you think you are, wherever you stand on it, you are always on top!"

"Often we stand at life's crossroads and view what we think is the end but God has much bigger vision and He tells us "relax, it's just a bend, not the end."

"It is by love that we serve. It is by patience that we understand. It is by trials that we gain wisdom. And it is by sharing that we become a blessing."

"No one ever fulfilled a dream without failure. No one perfected the law without violation. No one ever loved without a broken heart. Above all, no one can live alone without God."

"God makes us brave when we are afraid, makes us strong when we are weak. But most of all, He teaches us to hold on to Him when things keep on falling."

D' KJ LAYAS Club

It's not really a club, but at that time, my friends and I thought it's better sounding that way if we add the word "Club". I'm talking about the combination of the first letters of our names resulting to: D' KJ LAYAS. We coined that term for our barkada two decades ago during our elementary school days and look, it still helps me remember their names even though we haven't seen each other for years.


D - Dinalyn. We lost in touch after high school and I recently found her through NamesDataBase. She's one of my bestfriends.



K - Kathy. We went to same high school and college but haven't been in touch lately. We have the same birthday!


J - Jucel Mae. I last saw her when we graduated in elementary. Thanks to Friendster, we got connected again after more than a decade. Facebook and YM help us communicate despite the distance.


L - Lorevic Mae. We lost in touch when she transferred school in our third year in high school. I saw her through Facebook last month, added her but we haven't talked yet. I guess it's time to send her a message or write on her wall!


A - Aileen Grace. We met again while I was working in Antique and somehow we've managed to keep in touch. She's in my friendster and ANS Batch 95 Yahoo Groups.


Y - Yolanda. Lost in touch with her after elementary graduation although we managed to exchange some letter for a while. I was glad she went back to our province a few years ago and visited me. She's now in my friendster and Yahoo.

A - Annie Grace. I saw and talked to her (I think) five years ago. She's in friendster but is not active so I hadn't been in touch with her lately.

S - Sheryl Rose. Now, that's me!

To Love or Not To Love?

Today is valentine's day and so I decided to talk about love. No, not about mushy stuffs or about the love of my life. It's about my bestfriend's dilemma in love.

One of my bestfriends has fallen in love for the first time and just like any other girl in love, she thinks what they have is a great love story unfolding. But before they could go beyond the "once upon a time" phrase, the "the end" phrase began to lurk in every sentence of their story book.

Why?

She's in love with a man who has cancer. He was diagnosed with leukemia shortly after they met sometime ago.

I know this sounds like the movie A Walk To Remember but this is not fiction, it's real. And now she's asked for my advice and asked me that if I were in her place, would I be willing to go into a serious relationship with someone who has cancer?

We can't choose whom to fall in love with but being in a serious relationship is a choice. Many people get into relationships because they love each other but it takes more than love and lust to make a relationship work. Committing with another person is hard enough as it is. You have to deal with a lot of issues, face a lot of challenges together and hopefully come up with compromises for your differences.

Add to that the issue of terminal illness, and the problem gets bigger.

So, my answer to her question will be: IT DEPENDS.

It depends on how deeply I love and care for the other person. Will I be strong enough to lend my strength to him during those trying times? Will I be patient and understanding enough to take his mood swings in stride? Will I be of help to him rather than a liability? How committed am I if ever?

Life is a journey and we meet people along the way. If I happen to meet a wonderful person somewhere along the path, it doesn't matter whether the meeting will just be brief and short. What matters is that I had memorable sweet memories that will last a lifetime.

To love or not to love? It depends. But I really hope and pray that God will send a miracle to the both of you, miga Nic.