HaPPY HaLLOWeeN!! BOO!! he he he!!!

A black cat scared the heck out of me today ....

I'm UPSET

nikki, for lots of reasons, most of which i can't bring up here. and for those that think less of me, i *did* try. and i *was* one of the silly people that got turned away. i just didn't want to admit that i tried and failed, and no amount of imploring on your part would have changed it when you saw me.

i've been crying a lot lately; don't give me reason to start up again.

Posting on a Cold Day

This is the way things should be! Crisp and cold and confusingly lovely. Finally winter coat weather!

With this new soundtrack to everything I do (Get Happy! by Elvis Costello), new things are happening. I love discovering the beauty of things on my own, and I did that numerous times today. I found good books about Communism/Marxism while I was in the library today. Not only that I found HUGE index of things about Feminist and Racial theory hidden in the corner, along with loads of good fiction by people like Nichloas Mohr. I'll go back tomorrow after work to actually check out all these lovely books. Because I stumbled upon this section about 10 minutes before closing time, and the librarian had already made the "last call" for patrons to come to the main desk and check out their material!

Today I wore my very special winter-only peacoat and bright blue scarf. I felt "artsy" and it was just beautiful to take in all my surroundings and absorb what was going on, all the patterns and sights and things in my community. It's great to notice new things about a place where you always are, a place that never seems to change, but under a watchful, observant eye changes almost too much.

On a sad note, I came upon a poor dead squirrel on my way home. Right in my walking path. In front of me. It had been run over, with blood coming out of its mouth, which was open, baring it's little delicate fangs. I weeped over that squirrel for a few seconds and chanted what I could remember from a Buddhist death mantra, I could only wonder who it was and if it had a family and what/who it was going to be in its next life. I still mourn for that little squirrel, just a tiny bit.

Nipshot?

today a dude asked me if he could take a nipshot.....
what's that? said I....
he says he wants to take a cell phone picture of my nipple

i told him if i ever need that done, i'll do it myself!

Say No to SMS

"Say No to SMS" is the most fucked up thing i've read to date! Some dumb ass bitch tweeted me about it, said i "must read this forever" ......

From what I can make of it via translation, some Muslims have money problems caused by sending SMS texts.

(OR maybe SMS stands for "Stupid Malaysian Shit" ?!?!!?)

The post begins "Assalamualaikum and 1Dunia, can be said with fingers how many times I use the SMS in a day." Ok, hold up your fingers and take a picture so we can see exactly how many.

It goes on "Twitter is best but ni pardon because I can not join # OctTwtFest 2011 in accordance with amanz.my is reported breaking the world record." OK - really? Nobody cares!

Now for the funny part - "Joom we change and say "Say No to SMS". Technology really can help save costs if expenses can be used to the maximum and the excess money can be saved to do business online.

Yah, JOOM baby JOOM - use expenses to the max and save the excess money! o-key dough-key comrade!

Sounds like a real knockout manifesto you got there! LOL!

eMeRgEnCy Nu/\/\BeRs

When men fail you...................................................call Psalm 27

If you want to be fruitful.............................................call John 15

When you have sinned..............................................call Psalm 51

When you worry.......................................................call Matt. 6:19-34

When you are in danger............................................call Psalm 91

When God seems far away.......................................call Psalm 139

When your faith needs stirring...................................call Hebrews 11

When you are lonely and fearful..........................call Psalm 23

When you grow bitter and critical...................call 1 Corinthians 13

For Paul's secret to happiness........................call Colossians 3:12-17

For ideas of Christianity.............................call 1 Corinthians 5:15-19

When you feel down and out...........................call Romans 8:31-39

When you want peace and rest.........................call Matt. 11:25-30

When the world seems bigger than God............call Psalm 90

When you want Christian assurance..................call Romans 8:1-30

When you leave home for labor or travel............call Psalm 121

When your prayer grow selfish and narrow..............call Psalm 67

For a great opportunity.......................................call Isaiah 55

When you want courage for a task.....................call Joshua 1

How to get along with fellow men.....................call Romans 12

When you think of investments.......................call Mark 10:17-31

If you are depressed.........................................call Psalm 27

If your pocketbook is empty.............................call Psalm 37

If you lose confidence in people....................call 1 Corinthians 13

If people seem unkind....................................call John 15:12-17

If you discouraged about your work....................call Psalm 126

And the award for doofus of the year goes to...

Guess what I did today?
Well, I got out of bed, got dressed, chatted a bit with hubby, brushed teeth, got backpack and went to work. Only.. when I got to the bus stop, it seemed really desolate. After standing there for five minutes, wondering if there was a bus strike or something, I take a look at my watch. Which says 5:30. Which means I've somehow gotten up at 4:30. Which means that I was an hour *early*. *shakes head* How I've managed to do this, I don't know. But oh well. *Someone* is taking a nap when she gets back home from work!

need2do

i went to the library and got a pile of books .....

Christmas shopping. i need 2 mAke a list.....

the jeep needs an oil change badly....

My New TOY!

tokidoki® Barbie® Doll

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HAHA! I've got MINE! Came in the post today! :)

another Lost poEm

In the beginning

In the beginning there were these words.

And they were typed into the spangly interface.

And "Publish Post" was pressed.

And not 10 minutes forth, edit function was tested.

And it was good.

PAM

i am bored. coffee driven. hungry..... so sad that the world can not be like i thought that it would be when I was a little girl. A lot of blogs by people like you and me hope that someone out there has answers..... stop trying to sell me shitty ebooks and help me with my life..... i am in a piss ass mood ....

perSonal Contact inFo

readers have been trying to find a way to contact me more personally.... happened since i had a run-in with one of those Malaysian bitches online and i ripped her a new asshole [hopefully retired her from blogging too] and blew her away by presenting her with a transcript of a sexy little chat between me and her hubby.... LOL

you want me? try and call my house..... if busy or no answer call my cell... if no answer e-mail me!!!! if you don't get ahold of me by doing any of these things GIVE UP!!.... heehee

Divine Miss M

Something that has been troubling me is named Melissa. She is this really cool white girl who is new on the job, and i think i got myself in too deep with her. Actually, i know that I have. She's a lesbian and i let her kiss me a few times. exciting. i don't even feel like writing this. Thats really sad... i am that depressed that i don't even want to talk about it to myself. She wants me to come to her place. No objection, but her roomate Paula would be part of whatever happens. i met her the other day and she looks like she wants to eat me alive. too many people i know read this blog... so I can't really put everything i feel up here. decisions decisions

work really is troubling

i just feel like i am missing something. Like there is something out there for me, but i don't know what it is or how to get it... i shared with hubby,,, he's ok with me sharing time with Melissa (long as i come home to him) :)

no post today

AUGGGGGGGGGGGH!

i just typed a big long thing, but my computer erased it!

Javaura!

Here's a recent photo of LADY JAVA!

the Lost Poem

I see it in him I know it thru and thru,
Why does it happen like this?
I see it coming, can it be?
I love him more then words can explain,
I feel it deep inside when we are together, and feel it hurt when we are apart.
I look for him all around wanting for him to be near.
I love him, listening for his voice in the wind.
Waiting for him to return......

...aLaRmEd...

sometimes i wonder why i bother. as much as i complain, i really am lucky. i should have more self esteem, but i don't. i started this blog because i wanted to actually get stuff off my chest, and it was goin' good for awhile until these Malay princesses who think their shit smells like flowers ganged up one me, and then it all built up and i broke down, and it was bad. last year i was really depressed because of family problems, and i just let it build up and one night hubby was being difficult and i just started sobbing uncontrollably. i couldn't stop. luckily the next night nikki made love with me and i felt much better. the other thing i don't like about myself is the mentality that i need a guy. maybe its because of society and the importance of men, or maybe its just that i need some you-know-what. nikki knows how to work the fingers but you can't beat a good man... gotta go... one of the kids is up crying

sorry if i offended anybody

heartly forward

scoozme if i don't post much today

i got like 5 hours of sleep last night.....

Mashed Potatoes Don't BOUNCE

dinner disaster today - mashed potatoes don't bounce....

And I begin
in the middle of my life
in the middle of a day
old enough to know
that beginnings
dont always begin
fresh
early
bright
or with destinations.

tRenDs

Am I a trendsetter yet?

Do you like my version of what the "twitterer" blog should be now?

i'm feeling kinda empty these days. there are so many things i want to achieve, but it just seems so very much impossible at this very moment.....

Yoo-hoo! Twitterer to Server!

My server won't let me ftp right now for some reason. Very strange. And now I can't update my blog. That sucks. Now I gotta call them and figure out what the hell they are doing. Or maybe not. I'll try again tomorrow. Sometimes waiting a day does the trick. Can anything else go wrong?

Preps For Fall and Winter

Where have you been? Could make this an exotic vacation, but no... What with autumn just around the corner, many things need to be done outside. Cutting tree branches and bushes. Keeping the pool clean of many leaves, most of which where not mine. I do have a gardener, but that means the grass (which is small) is mowed and trimmed. and then the damn blower! I guess they're necessary, but after they leave I usually wash everything off as the dust just resettles elsewhere. Work work work. But, once again I must reiterate I am lucky as I do not live in an apartment. That would drive me nuts. I have really become a loner (as much as possible with a hubby and two little ones to care for) and somewhat of a bookworm and would not wish to tolerate NOISE.

One day this week I thought "what is all this noise?" Usually it's nice and quiet; even though I live very near a very busy fast food street and a main highway thru town. There were blowers, mowers, dogs barking, loud car stereos and the people who live in back of me seems to have a man that loves noise. He is usually power sawing, pounding loud enough to wake the dead and yelling at someone. Then in back of him are children screaming or they're playing horseshoes after midnight. Good thing I sometimes don't get to bed til 1 or 2am. I think I notice it more because most of the time it is very quiet and peaceful.

It never rains here until I straighten things up. Usually it's right after I've tidied up the backyard and cleaned out the pool. At least it gives me something to do rather than sitting in front of the TV or PC all the time. The gardener does not do any of my backyard as there is no grass, just decking and potted plants. That's another job I've been doing. I thought it was going to be a simple job. The decking around the pool is concrete and all around the sides and back is a wooden decking that has been down long enough for the termites to eat away. Luckly it is only about a foot off the ground as I have put my foot thru several times. Some of them were easy to replace, but one area was eaten away where the boards were nailed to them. So, I had to pull up one whole section and have yet to redo it. I did use my spiral saw to cut up a LOT of wood to burn that could not be used again.

USBlues

I took out a USB card I had installed for more ports, (obviously). The thing was totally messing my system. It was impossible to get the computer to boot on the first try. It usually took about 5 times. My system was turtle slow. I couldn't figure out why, then I took this thing out. I couldn't believe it. My system was back to normal instantly. I have no idea why this happened. Argh!

WAffLES!

waffles for breakfast today! this website makes me want to create attractive breakfasts.....

memo to me

note to self: never drink coffee directly after brushing teeth. very, very bad
two more simple facts about me: I drink Nescafe coffee and use Colgate mint toothpaste.

I like Jack Kerouac, but NOT THE DHARMA BUMS!

It sucks, seriously. I like Kerouac, but this book sucks. I read a plot summary online and some reviews and they all said it was bad, so I got a copy at the library the other day to see for myself and it is truly horrible. I didn't finish it, I read what I could digest. Which wasn't very much. So I've still only read one book of his (On The Road), which was spectacular.

Ker-Choo!

I'm home SICK!

I really tried hard to keep well, but everyone around me was snorting and sneezing, coughing and wheezing, forcing their cold germs onto me. I had no choice but to keep up with the crowd. Yuck.

And my cat can smell that I'm sick so she's stalking me around my house. Everywhere I go, she's right there underfoot. I'm already grump... I know she's just trying to be sympathetic and show her concern for her mommy, but sheesh!

One little, yet oh so huge, observation before I slip into a self-induced Nyquil coma. There are several blogs I have been reading for quite some time. Many of these said blogs are quite widely read. And recently I've noticed most of these blogs take on a political urgency. Not all of their posts are about current political events, but there are a lot more political posts than there used to be.

This makes me happy.

Monday Blooz

Today was my day back at work....argh... another morning shift! but it was all good cause i got to work with my buddy, Pokii Piper. the funny thing is, whenever me and pokii work together, we always end up slacking off and making fun of each other at work...which is probably why i like working with her more so than with my other co-workers. anyways, today the boss yelled at everybody...(its like a warning for doing something wrong), and the sucky part is that i didnt even do anything! for crying out loud!!! oh well, thats my life for ya.....tonight hubby is home with the kids so i plan to hang out with jen and maybe grab some takeout....and sleep for tommorow. hahaha....i know nini's gonna call me again and well talk till 1 in the morn....GOODBYE SLEEP!!!

road spray

went out last night to our little spot - i exchanged glances with a woman that was there. she was so attractive. really, she was pretty hot. older than me. blonde. sexy body. same height as me. big tits! it was the first time i have been attracted to a woman like that in a long time. of course i am happily married to a man, but he knows that i look and that i think about having sex with women.

since the club welcomes gays its not unusual to see samesex couples dancing so when she came over to my table and asked me to slow dance i said yes. shes 45 and a nurse. after we danced we sat and chatted awhile. then we danced again and we kissed. she whispered wonderful naughty things in my ear. my panties were soaked by the time she fingered me. i called hubby and told him i would be really late. she treated me really nice so i returned her kindnesss and more. i said yes to all her requests. i feel happy and dirty and wonderful and confused. YAY!

soul sucker

my morning run is done.
i have now realized and understand that google is taking over the world via the internet.
going to our lttle spot 2night for all that may be interested.
music at the moment is whatevers on the radio.
quote for you:
"show me how pretty the world is, cause i envy the way that you move" ~ matt nathanson